Thursday, January 28, 2010
I used to have to lay down and pray just to get those jean capris on! Now, they just fall off. Awesome. I am trying to make myself realize that I have made positive progress on this journey, but it's hard not to get caught up in how much further I have to go.
Thanks again for all of you- my followers. Road trips are no fun without passengers!!!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
A few of you have asked about this "husband" I talk about. I haven't posted a picture of him before, because I would like for my family to maintain some amount of anonymity. But for all of you curious out there, here is our Family's Christmas picture. I have a husband and two sons! :)
I am officially down 40 pounds this morning! I have been waiting for this for a while. I weighed 250 back when my husband was interning for Chiropractic school. He had to use me to get some x-ray credits, and along with the x-ray came a full physical. I was so embarrassed that he was going to find out what I weighed.
When the moment came for me to step on the scale, my husband's "assistant" (another student) and his professor all gathered around. Why? I guess they were all dying to see how big I was. When the number popped up, my husband looked at me and asked, "How is that possible?". I must have turned every shade of red. I thought I would die from embarrassment.
I didn't die. Instead, I managed to pack on another 40 pounds over the course of our marriage. Those 40 pounds are gone now, and I couldn't be more relieved. Oh wait, yes I could. I could be at goal weight. But, that's for another day. But the day WILL come! I am so excited.
Thanks so much for ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT during my journey. This journey would be so much rockier without all of you.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I am ashamed. I ought to be shot. Tonight I did something that I will forever regret.
My husband has been putting on some weight over the past few months- I'm losing it and he's finding it. He is growing increasingly aware of the situation and is becoming uncomfortable with his pant size. My husband has always been a solid size 34 and has held steady at around 175-180 pounds for as long as I have known him. But, lately his 36s are starting to feel tight and his tummy is starting to dun-lap over. I'll get to the point, I promise.
Because he is uncomfortable, he has delegated me to be the one to "remind" him of his little bulge problem, especially when he requests fast food or ice cream late at night. I have been sure to keep the freezer stocked with Weight Watcher's ice cream bars for him. Soooooooo....this evening he ended up getting a milkshake from a certain "chicken chain".
After a while, I looked over at him and said, "Okay Honey, are you still hungry? Do you really want to finish that? Put it down". THEN....oh, my gosh....THEN I proceeded to reach over to his side of the car and I....I....I jiggled his belly with my hand. (Head being thrown into my hands in disgust)
Oh the horror. Of all the monstrosities I could inflict on my poor husband whom I love to death. I seriously did that. For that moment, for that one little moment in time, I was totally that "person" who jiggles you to show you how fat your are!!!
I have stooped to a new low.
He said he didn't care, but I VOWED TO NEVER DO THAT AGAIN to ANYONE!!! I told him I felt SO bad that I was going to go straight home and eat. ;) At least that provided a laugh to break the tension.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Dear Fellow Bloggers,
I hate to make you aware of this, but I must be honest. I have recently diagnosed myself with a severe case of "Thick Head Syndrome", also known as THS or Dumb Blonde.
My prognosis depends on my ability to get something through my thick skull.
Apparently, I have been in denial regarding my recent weight loss surgery. After struggling with weight loss for at LEAST the last 20 years, it hasn't sunken in that I am actually going to lose weight. Me. I am. Lynn is not going to be "fluffy" forever.
Whenever my husband makes simple comments, such as "When you are down to 170 pounds, you are going to love shopping!", there is a small part of me that wants to smack him! How dare he just assume that it will be so easy to lose all this weight on my own. But then, I realize that I am not doing it alone. Not only do I have all of you, but I have my band!!! Dur.
My husband has faith in my journey, but I keep forgetting what path I am on. I am so used to going down the wrong road, that my THS keeps kicking in.
When is it going to sink in that I AM going to be successful? That I don't have to be this way forever? That I have been equipped with a wonderful tool to help me?
Do any of you suffer from THS?
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
This blubbery blogger is feeling.....well.....blubbery. I hate to admit it, but I am in one heck of a crappy place right now. I can't stop eating left over Christmas cookies, even though I should just put them in the trash instead of treating my body as the trash can.
I just sucked down a LARGE milkshake from Chick-Fil-A, something I NEVER do, and I am feeling pretty darn blue.
Crap. Crap. Crap.
Here wagon, wagon, wagon.
Monday, January 4, 2010
A fellow blogger, JEN, was so kind to send me some of the clothes that she has shrunk out of! I am like a small child on Christmas morning.....so excited.
Here I am in a gorgeous Ralph Lauren sweater that I very well may never take off.