Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Here Discipline, Discipline, Discipline....


I just don't get it. I was doing so great a few months ago, and now I seem to have just lost all of my discipline. Somehow I am right back to the "I just don't care" attitude. How does this happen?

Just a few months ago, I was exercising regularly, able to make wise choices when it comes to food, and I was losing and feeling great! Now, I am eating endlessly and I can't seem to stop....again. What is it about this self-defeatist attitude I have? It seems like whenever I am doing great and finally starting to feel good about myself again, I start to destroy it. Do any of yo
I was getting compliments left and right from the people who really matter in my life and my clothes were starting to fall off. I was on track to achieving all of my goals and now I am just wallowing in self despair once again.

Do you have any advice for me? I really want to know if this happens to you, and why you think we do this to ourselves. I know I am worth it, but the evil one sitting on my left shoulder tells me otherwise I guess. I wish I could just flip the switch, but it is too dark in here and I can't find it.

15 comments:

SeaShore said...

Yes, it happens to me. It's been happening the last 2 weeks. For me I think it's been stress and anxiety and eating is how I've always coped with those things. I have not yet replaced that method of coping with something better for me.

Not sure how to make it stop. I read a bit today about what bad cholesterol and high blood pressure can do to me, among other things. Health scare tactics can work on me, if they are scary enough.

I made it through today. I'm hoping to build some momentum.

Good luck.

Bethany said...

Lynn, I totally know where you're coming from. I'm holding on only by the skin of my teeth. The only thing that keeps me from going whole hog is that I know my husband will be aggravated if I keep paying for WW and not losing any weight. I have been yo-yoing for weeks now. I'm so sick of it, but I don't know what to do to get my butt in gear again. Just know that we are here for you. Please don't give up! I know how hard it is, and I even have serious health incentives that ought to keep me motivated, but they don't. *Hugs* You're not alone!
~Bethany

Deb said...

I don't know that I have advice other than don't give up, because I am struggling too. In the past wehn I have lost a decent amount, say 25-30 pounds, I would start to falter. I think the fear of success plays into this happening to many of us. Maybe you should explore the possibility that you are afraid to succeed for some reason. Or maybe on some level you don't think you deserve to twirl and act obnoxiously happy, to quote your blog title. Just a thought. I think so much of the struggle is with our own thinking and it's important to explore that deeply. Hang in there.

nmburleson said...

I'm going through this right now. I've been wondering the same thing about myself. For me, I think I stopped focusing on each day and have started to overwhelm myself. I start thinking about how much weight I need to lose and it seems insurmountable! When I step back and just focus on what I need to do today it lets me breath and it makes it much easier to make it through THIS day, instead of worrying about all the other days I have to get through!

Most important, don't give up!

Simplymoi said...

Don't give up! I have been there, done that, and will probably do it again. Take little steps that keep you moving forward until you are ready to put it on full force again. Find some ways to deal with your every day stress that will take some pressure off of yourself. You deserve it!

Manuela said...

You know, I really think it has to do with the time of the year. I was eating salads every day, lots of fresh fruit and now I just feel like hibernating but I'm too busy!

Each week I say I'll get to exercising but there aren't enough hours in the day. I think once I'm in my placement I can stick to a regular schedule.

We'll talk more about this! I want to lose some by Christmas!!!!!

kilax said...

This usually happens to me too :( And I can never figure out what it is that lets me get back on track again. Maybe just start small and build back up to where you were? Don't let all of your hard work go down the drain!

Kelly said...

I just found your blog and love it. I have a blog just started very similar, I deal with binge eating as well and it's tough. You can be a smart, talented, lovely woman and still have this thing that you just don't know how to fix. Keep blogging sista!

Kelly said...

Have you ever watched A&E's Intervention? The people they follow are hardcore addicts, some get help, some relapse. The show is pretty potent, you can find all the old shows on youtube.com. Just type in Intervention and start watching. When I watch that show, I KNOW that food is an addiction (particularly starch and sugar because I never binge on meat) and I have to remind myself that I am the same as them...same as a hardcore meth addict and that abstinence is the answer. Like you, I'm bingeing these days, trying to get a hold of it. It's very very very very hard, isn't it? Makes me never want to ever try a drug such as meth or heroine because you get addicted the first time, you never lose the craving even when you're abstinent and the rest of your life is trying to find that high somewhere else...just like us foodies who may luckily get on our diets for the long haul. Yeah, I hear ya. I don't have the answers.

Kel

Kelly said...

PS...I don't know if this is you because you're married but the one time I lost over 80 pounds and got skinny, all of a sudden guys wanted me when they would've never given me the time of day before, it was a real big emotional mess for me...the emotional stuff we have to sort through is just as hard as the physical act of losing weight. That makes it doubly hard.

Fat Free Me said...

I am clamoring for that wagon with you. REACH!!!!!!!

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Mara said...

I understand. I have been having a tough time with this myself. Hang in there you will find your way back.

Mara
http://24stepstogo.blogspot.com/

Stephanie said...

I think it happens to anyone who is trying to accomplish anything. My only advice is to hang in there, it will come back. Take it one day at a time and focus on your smaller goals not the whole picture.

Erin said...

You are doing fabulously.
My advice... make a list of what makes you feel good (or will make you feel good). Be really ME focused. A mani/pedi, getting your hair cut, buying yourself something (new purse), a bubble bath, a massage, a nap, pay someone to clean your house... so often we don't give ourselves these treats b.c. we haven't "earned" them (the house is too dirty, I ate poorly, I didn't exercise, etc. thus I don't deserve the reward). So don't do those things as a reward, do them because they make you feel good and you, inherently, deserve to feel good. After I've had a facial, I feel fabulous. When I feel good, I want to continue feeling good - it is difficult for me to eat unhealthy food after a facial because I know it will make me feel bad and I want to keep the good post-facial feeling - so I eat a salad. BUT, if the facial is the reward... I feel bad because I haven't "earned" the facial, I feel bad, so I eat badly, and I never get the facial. I hope I've made sense. Keep up the good work. You can do it!