Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Farewell Band, Please Hurry Home

As I type this entry, my band is somewhere over the Atlantic Ocean- far, far, far away from me. Our distance deeply saddens me and fills me with a horrific anxiety. Why did she leave me you ask? I don't know. All she said right before she walked out the front door with my 7 ccs of saline was this, "I need a holiday". Because we have only been apart now for ten hours, her words still haunt me; still so fresh in my mind. When will this hurt, this wound heal? I have been told to expect her to be gone for at least two weeks.

She has served me hard and served me bravely over the past six months. She was tired and she was too full. She tried as hard as she could to firmly grasp my stomach, but she was just too tired of trying to hold on while my stomach continued to swell resulting in my inability to keep anything down over the past four days. The ulcerated and painful environment that she was working in was just too much for her to bear. Her gallant efforts resulted in a ten pound weight loss in the past four days, but even for her that was too much.

I am hoping that in two weeks time she will be willing to re-access our situation and once again join me in this battle of the bulge. Maybe this "Band Holiday" is just what the doctor ordered. But until then, to ensure that her working conditions are as satisfactory and as comfortable for her as possible, I will be taking a daily regimen of ibuprofen, steroids and a proton pump inhibitor.

How will I deal with this sudden separation of such a crucial "person" in my life? I am hoping to deal with my pain through exercise and focusing on my health rather than indulging in copious amounts of food to drown my sorrows.

I do hope that she hurries home. I am so scared to be apart from her. So scared.

12 comments:

Southern Belle said...

Oh my goodness, I am so sorry that you are going through this. I hope you feel better soon!

Girl Bandit said...

So sorry that this has happened. I just found your blog and will watch with baited breath to see how it all goes...good luck

Kristin said...

What a shame. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. I hope you're healed up soon and ready for the band to get back to work!

Sib said...

Ohhhhhhhh... I am almost in tears myself. I hope you get through this better and quicker than you currently imagine. I'll be keeping my eye out for your updates. ((hug))

Jennifer said...

I'm sorry Lynne. :( Hang in there. It will be OK. (((Hugs)))

carla said...

I am so sorry you are going through all ofthis. I hope that everythgin works out for you and you feel better soon

Amy said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your separation. I will definitely be watching for positive updates. Hang in there, girl!

Maree said...

So sorry to hear this - here's hoping you heal quickly.

Tiffani said...

Yikes!! Scary stuff... hope you're healing up nicely and can reevaluate soon! :)

stardustic said...

Sorry to hear that you have been separated from your band. Wishing you a speedy recovery and that you'll get her back very soon.

BanderificBeauty said...

OMG I am sorry the band went bye bye. I am sure it wont be a long break just a rest from each other. Everyone needs a rest every now and then. Just remember the rules you had with the band and go by them without the band. I know you will be strong enough to do it WE ALL BELIEVE IN YOU!! *hugs*

sweetpea5899 said...

I hope things get better soon... I think you are awesome and your pics are incredible and inspiring =) I have given you an award... head on over to my blog and find out what it is.. Cassi