Sunday, September 27, 2009

I've Had my Fill and Then Some

Well, I had my first fill last Thursday, I just stink at blogging lately. Sometimes I feel that I shouldn't blog unless I have something profoundly wise or positive to contribute.

My fill went swimmingly. I was a little apprehensive, but after a quick pinch and a little burn it was all done! The FNP added 3 cc s, and I quickly scheduled my next fill for the 7th of October. I am NOT wasting any time messing around with finding my "sweet spot".

I have found that food does not go down as well as it has been, so I can definitely feel the increase in restriction. BUT, I am still having a problem not eating too much. I am confusing the "stuck" feeling with fullness and vice versa. Am I full? Should I stop? My head hunger has been getting in the way. It is hard to wrap my head around eating less when my brain tells me I haven't eaten enough. It's very strange. So, just like I wrote in my last post, I am working hard at forming new, healthier habits.

I had to grab Wendy's while I was out and about today, and I opted for a kid's meal with chicken nuggets and a diet coke. I was only able to eat the nuggets because french fries are a big no-no for me. In the past my meal would have been MUCH LARGER. My left over "sick" self is constantly thinking of ways to sabotage myself. I need to get a grip! I have days where I just set myself up for failure. I have failed at all of my last attempts, so I am obviously going to fail again. The little voice needs to find a new tag line, because that one is getting old!


Now that food isn't the love of my life, I have found a new passion. SHOPPING. It's bad. Really, really bad. I buy and return. Buy some more and then return some more. Buy. Buy again. Feel guilty when my husband threatens that we have to sell our house. Wait a few days. Buy. Return and return. *SIGH* I am deep in the throws of trying to complete my sons' wardrobes for the Fall/Winter so I unfortunately have an excuse. I buy sale items and then return them when they go further on sale only to buy them again. I have made a nifty little game out of saving as much moola as possible while spending money. It keeps me busy.

Ahhhhh, yes. A fellow blogger just reminded me- in addition to shopping, cleaning and doing laundry (yes, laundry) have actually become a pastime as well.


Irene said...

Love it!!! I have been doing the same is so fun to ship, buy spend return and then buy spend some more return its so much fun!! eating has NOTHING on shopping!!

Nicole said...

i am a return-a-holic as well!

Jess said...

Ah, yes, redirecting addiction. I'm thinking of stocking up on cleaning supplies before surgery and hope I become addicted to cleaning. Oh, or maybe laundry. One can only hope!

Brooke said...

Glad I'm not the only returner out there.


Same for everything you said with your fill. I rely on the full feeling to tell me to stop. But by the time I get to full I'm not just full, I'm FULL.

Then I start worrying about a stretched band and I got all ver klempt and can't see the forest through the trees.

Glad I'm not the only one getting the hang of restriction immediately, it definitely has a learning curve!

99ToGo said...

If you run out of dirty laundry to quench your thirst, you know where I live. I have a room full of the stuff just begging to be done :)