After talking with Kate, I put my two little ones in our van and made a mad dash to Bed Bath & Beyond to purchase a NEW scale. I am ready to throw my old one out the window. While there, I found myself stepping on each and every scale trying to find one that displayed a result that I actually liked. If anyone was watching me they would have assumed I had an obsessive compulsive weighing disorder, but I actually feel like I am forming one! After stepping up on only one scale that registered lower than the others, I decided I needed to give up and focus on that non-scale victory list. I purchased a good old $20 spring loader. I hope that it is more accurate than my digital. I usually step on the scale a few times when I wake up because my digital scale is always changing- it reads higher and higher each time I step on it, totally frustrating. So, on to that list:
- My body has to be healthier as a result of my new, healthier lifestyle.
- The pants I was wearing today looked like parachute pants, they were very baggy.
- I "feel" thinner (I actually undress in front of my husband now- BIG step).
- My two year old doesn't get to see Mommy stop at 3 fast food restaurants in any given day.
- I actually obsess about food less. Now that I don't have to think about what I will eat next, how much of it I can eat, and who will know, I have a new found freedom and a different relationship with food. I don't see it as my enemy anymore.
- Satan's "voice" reminded me that I could drive to McDonald's and binge without anyone knowing, and I pushed the thought out of my head just as fast as it appeared.