Saturday, July 19, 2008

With a Fizzle and a Flop

I am failing. Big time. I don't understand why it is so hard to control my food when I am around other people, especially family members. My husband keeps flashing me the hairy eyeball because he knows that I am eating more than I really want to.
Last night, I took my sister out to get ice cream, but it turned into my eating mine next to a catatonic body. She is like stone and understandably so, divorce is by far one of the most difficult things that anyone can go through. So, in my efforts to get her out and about, I am sabotaging my food plan. I have been so stressed that my face is breaking out like a teenager's and I have been suffering from a daily tension headache.
"Dennis the Menace" (my sister's son) hasn't started behaving any better. My two year old is now screaming "NO" and "NOW, I want it NOW" at my husband and me. "Dennis" has ripped my curtains from their rings, ruined a few blinds, pulled salt shaker corks out and dumped salt everywhere, ruined our sandbox and a few puzzles, and pillows and blankets continue to be strewn across the house. Every time I reprimand him, my sister gets upset with me. "Dennis" doesn't even know what discipline is, and when I scold him, he runs to his Mommy where he is greeted with a "Oh, mercy, poor Gabriel. What did Aunt Lynn do?". I came home from an errand today only to find my diet cheese and my whole weeks allotment of apples littering my kitchen floor. All with ONE bite taken out of each of them. Wouldn't that drive you crazy too? So with a fizzle and a flop I have eaten and gained miserable.

My husband has extended his offer to allow them to stay as long as they need to. However, I think they are leaving tomorrow. PHEW! I REALLY need to get back on plan here. I haven't been able to get to the computer to reach out and read your blogs for inspiration because they have all been staying in our computer room. I really need to catch up and get my head back in the game. I hope you are all doing well. I should be "back" tomorrow. I can't wait to spend some quiet time and catch up on all of you.


Fat Free Me said...

Well, I'm there with ya babe. I had the muncies BIG time last night, and polished off 3 Access bars :( Back on track today, and will be planning to see you right along side, kicking those pounds off whether they want to leave or NOT!!!

Cristina said...

Tomorrow is a new day and you'll be back on track!!!

Anonymous said...

Hoo, boy. That's a tough one. I know you want to be there for your sister, but sometimes you just gotta know when to say when. Just remember that ups and downs are a part of this journey, and getting a little off track now and then is expected. Jump right back on and know that all of us in the same shoes are totally rooting for you! (BTW, sounds like your sister needs a good parenting book...) :D

Losing Weight: said...

I've been surfing all morning, so now I'm not even sure how I got here. But I'm here and I have enjoyed reading your blog. It sounds like things have been very stressful around your house lately. As soon as they leave, make sure that you put yourself as the #1 priority again! I also like that you posted the dress you will wear when you get to your goal...very cool! Feel free to stop by my blog, as I too, am trying to lose weight. My story in a nutshell...thought I was heavy as a teen (I wasn't), I gained 60 pounds with both my first and 2nd pregnancies, and have been battling my weight ever since! A few years ago, I lost 43 pounds and blogged the whole way, only to quit and gain it all back. I am now focusing on healthy eating and more diets!

Come visit!

Allison said...

Goodness, sounds like you have a lot on your plate, literally! "Dennis" sounds like a very difficult house guest. I'm sure you'll get back on track once you get your house back in order.

kgrenier12 said...

Dust yourself off and get back on that horse!

The fact that you are aware of unhealthy habits is a good thing.

You can do this!
KG said...

Families are so hard. We love them but for whatever reason, they affect us so deeply.

I hope you are taking care of yourself too and know that no matter how difficult it is, you do have the strength to move past this very difficult visit.

Jim said...

Eating with relatives and/or friends is often a diet-killer for me. When I'm out on my own, I pick places where I know I can get good healthful salads, but when I am with others, we often end up at places where there are no good food choices, and I go off my diet big-time. It's always a struggle.